Maybe it's not really falling in love. Then again maybe it IS and my feelings are just shifting gears because I have to face the cards of reality that are lain in the table from the start. And while I'm definitely recovering from the fall and while the gears are most probably turning, it doesn't change the fact that the feelings are rooted from love and affection and adoration. The result now is that my protective instincts are overpowering over him. I'm a stubborn, strong lady for everyone I care for, while I can be weak and at time powerless when myself is concerned. And right at this moment I can say that I fiercely care and worry for him unconditionally. He is a dear friend, a marvelous and adorable person, a good man, a vibrant soul. These are all I need to see and know. What I first recognized as non-platonic feelings may now be turning into sisterly love. It's still beautiful and as irreplaceable as any other kinds of love. He is now a brother and a good friend I'd die fighting for,. He'll have whatever little or big that I can offer.
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If I am a man..., then he is my counterpart. (Setting aside my dear NOX, that is.^^) He is always a step ahead of me which I could say is the very thing I've been looking for. Someone as strong and as stubborn yet kind and loving. Someone snark and witty, ruthless and fierce, yet as gentle and delicate. Someone who can be as silent as a grave yet so colorful and so full of life inside. Someone who has myriads of mysteries with him that not a single day would be the same as the last. He is simply beautiful in his corporeal form.... but more so in the inside.
My heart soars and my soul sings when he is around.
He is beautiful.
It's beautiful.
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